False Reality

After many years of keeping my natural hair color, my sister decided to take matters into her own hands and dye mine a color called Cinnamon Sprinkle. It is a temporary dye since she knows all-too-well that I will not take the time to go to the hair salon to fix the roots as they grow out. Aside from the fact that the shower looked like the scene of a horrible wine accident while rinsing, my hair turned out pretty well. Perhaps too well, as I have gotten a number of positive comments about it.

I realize what you are thinking but let me interject and state my case. I agree that receiving a compliment is a wonderful thing; it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. But what I do not enjoy about this entire experience is that I feel that I am presenting a false front to the world, that I have something to hide. I feel the exact same way about make-up. It took me a couple of days to parse these feelings out and truly understand what was happening. Having my hair dyed makes me feel like a fraud. I understand some people feel it is an expression of individuality but when the entire world needs to change something about themselves, it is no longer a unique attribute. I feel that I am perfectly fine the way I am and am very much looking forward to the dye washing away, no matter how many people tell me that I look fantastic with dark auburn hair.

Spa Day

Cara and I finally managed to find a time to head to the spa together and I am very glad now that we went during the week, as we had the place almost entirely to ourselves. The sense of ownership made me significantly less self-conscious than I otherwise would have been in such surroundings. I cannot honestly say that I am not completely comfortable in my own skin but neither am I shy. Hanging out with Cara forced me to abandon any pretense of holding back and just throw myself headlong into a day spent naked or nearly so. It was rather liberating for a spa virgin.

As a first-timer, I did not exactly know what to expect. I simply signed up for the services Jason picked out and went with the flow. I am glad I did, honestly. Their list of options would have overwhelmed me on my own and it was nice to have a decision-free afternoon. All I was required to do was lie on the table and roll over when prompted. It was delightful to put myself in someone else’s care for ninety minutes, letting my mind wander freely. I can see why people pay ridiculous sums of money for this kind of treatment and naturally, I enjoyed every minute of it. It is good to escape my humdrum reality and see how the other half lives but it made coming back to reality that much more jarring.